“The real message is to accept your children,
and accept your friends,
The other day i found myself in a situation where i was able to see some good fruit come from a decision i made a while back.
Some months ago, i decided to let people tell me who they are and what they think.
What i mean is, i decided to stop trying to read people. No more guessing if they were being genuine or telling me the truth or representing themselves correctly.
Through examining my life, and trying to be healthier and happier, one of the things i’ve learned is i can’t change anyone but myself. Over the years, i’ve been misjudged and misunderstood – i’m certain y’all have been as well. I’ve learned the hard lesson that i can’t make anyone think the way i want them to think about me. I can’t make anyone understand why i am the way i am and do the things i do.
One day it occurred to me that the reverse is very likely also true.
So i’ve stopped figuring people out.
What good does it do either of us for me to notice the subtle, secret body language between you and someone i know damn well isn’t your spouse?
There’s a reason you’re playing your cards close to your chest, and it’s none of my business, or you would have told me.
There’s a reason you’re clearly lying and it’s none of my business, or you wouldn’t be lying to me.
And what about the times i’ve been wrong? People have been wrong about me, and i’ve been wrong about people. Not just a few times, either.
What good did it do me to know what you were really thinking or what you’re up to or who you really are behind closed doors?
Not much good at all. That smug feeling of superiority or having one over on you didn’t feel very good once i stopped caring so damn much about what YOU think of ME. In fact, it makes me feel like a shithead – and i think it SHOULD.
So i don’t do it anymore, and my life is a lot less stressful. It turns out some of the drama in my life was created by lil ole me. Heh. I’ve already got enough things to deal with, without creating any extra trouble.
I ask myself one question, though:
Could it hurt me to take them at their word and be wrong?
For instance, if a mechanic promises me he’s been working on my brakes all day and they’re perfect, but i get the distinct impression he’s lying due to his shifty eyes and the smell of whiskey – i’m going to address the potential lie because i have to drive home in that vehicle he was supposedly working on. I could get pretty hurt all right.
And hey, if you’ve got bruises again, and you tell me you ran into a door AGAIN, i may question you about that – because you’re my friend and if you’re in trouble and i don’t ask or offer help, that would hurt, too.
I won’t take it personally if you keep something private and i find out later.
You tell me who you are, how you’re feeling, and what you’re thinking. I won’t be trying to second guess you. Even if i get the strong feeling that you’re lying to me, i’m gonna let it go.
Less drama, more peace. I like you better now, and hopefully it’ll be reciprocated.
If not – that’s your business, not mine.